you make my heart go 'boom'

So I've been feeling pretty run down of late.
Too much Uni, too much work, too much family going on right now, can't really handle it all. Ended up with a heart beat through the roof & a soaked pillow of tears. Had an ECG scan, my hearts all okey-pokey but got blood tests on Monday eek!! Panic attacks are horrid. Especially when a thing like fireworks sets off another episode! *Shakes fist angrily at neighbours!*

However, I'm starting to relax a bit more now I've organised time to get things done. But I'm no where near on top of this mountain of time consuming crap!

Supposed to be going out tonight but in a rubbishy mood [had a yucky day at work], so I'm watching Gossip Girl [never bothered with it before] recommend by my friend http://riphertothreads.blogspot.com/ and it's actually fabby, I love it. The guys are hot, the girls are hotter! [I so wouldn't say 'NO' to either S or B ha!]

Well I need to go sort out my costume for this Halloween part-ay! Vampire School Girl it is! Oh dear!

Lovers...

Lovers alone wear sunlight, buried amongst the linen and lace, their limbs entwined in sweet embraces, no knobbly knees to break the moment. Still learning how to be small.

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere; they were in each other the whole time, hiding in those tidy places, you never think to search. They were there whispering, “You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen”.

Lovers see each other in colours that don’t exist, a secret they keep close to their hearts; they wear each others star-studded skin, but they won’t tell the world what they know.

“I thought you had forgotten me.”
“It’s hard to forget you when there is such an empty space when you are gone”

'one of those days'

Today was 'one of those days'...
Slept through my alarm and missed my 9am lecture. As well as making my boyfriend late for work, as i turned off his alarm and didn't tell him it went off.
Go back to mine to change my clothes, then totter in to town to try find my bf a 'chin up chuck' gift. After searching for 3hrs, i found it, the perfect t-shirt. But when i went to leave the store, i was greeted by torrential rain! perfect.
I run to Uni for my 1:00 lecture, scarf wrapped around my noggin, i make it just in time. After numerous lectures and an hours shelving duty at the library, i reach 6:00pm and home time. I quick walk back to my bf's house, hoping to catch him before he goes to band practice. I manage to have a quick convo through his car window. He's had a horrific day, but no time to explain. He's soon gone and i am left alone in the wet. Of course i am wearing inappropriate footwear ie. ballet shoes which have sucked the water up like a sponge.
I've had no time to eat the whole day so by this point i'm running off a tiny slice of wheat free toast and a Caramel Fredo. So the massive pile of wheat free fish fingers and baked beans i made for dinner was a welcome comfort!
Get a text from my bf, am now staying over his after i finish work and to buy some drink for this evening and ciggies. By now the rain is just horrendous, so i grab my broken brollie, which i left at his a while ago. On my way i managed to step in a puddle that went half way up my calf and my brollie snapped in half. Like are you serious!?
Anywho, got some spare clothes, grabbed some Uni work & my Mac, and frogged marched my way to the shops, minus the brollie. Struggling to carry the drink, my bag, laptop and holdall, my shoes squelching out water, i finally collapsed at my bf's. Only to realise that i forgot my work t-shirt and his ciggies, so i run to the shops again, then run to the Library for work as i'm now late.
And here i am, blogging about my rubbish day. On the plus side, there is a brollie that has been in the lost property section for about a week. That is so mine now! So i can get home relatively dry.

Phew!
How was your day?

Nutty-Ella

So i had a bet with my boyfriend that i could last a month without eating Cheese or Chocolate. Now, these are two food stuffs which i eat on a daily basis! Nonetheless, i was determined to prove that i wasn't fully reliant on these dairy based products. I blame my stubbornness totally. Either way, today after 2 weeks of me being a total misery-guts, and depriving myself of my two favourite things, i caved in: Nutella on Wheat Free Crumpets!! soooo yum, so worth it. My forfeit is to buy my boyfriend dinner from a restaurant of his choice, not such a bad loss [considering the original bet was for £100]

Microphones

i found this on 'we heart this' and it made me smile. i'd like to share it with you. and maybe you will smile too.